• Effort

    I am currently working toward rewiring my brain on how I feel toward one of our children. They have hurt me so bad to where my brain is now trying to save me from anymore hurt from them. I know I can’t continue avoiding them in my life. An effort has to be made… Of…

  • Rewired

    I heard a podcast talking about how we will rewire our brains to protect ourselves. The words they said definitely hit me hard. My mental health recently has been at an all time low in recent months. I have had to put myself first for a time, and even participating in counseling. Our minds are…

  • Place Holder

    Some days I think of my title as an adoptive mom as a ‘position’. Yep, you heard the word. How could I you even think that you are carrying a position even after you have adopted the children? Well, when you hear the things I have heard from my adopted children then you would understand.…

  • Numb

    Have you ever had a situation come up in your life that completely drained you? You had given all of your mental capacity to it, to where you feel extremely soul-sucked. Where your mental health was suffering and affecting your physical health as well. I had one of those experiences recently. It has taken me…

  • It’s a Big Deal

    Imagine sitting in the Emergency Room with your child waiting for them to have a mental health assessment. They sit on the hospital bed wrapped in a hospital gown and lots of warmed hospital blankets. They hold their head down so low where their chin is touching their chest. Can’t even look at you in…

  • Prep

    It’s that time of year where many parents are preparing to send children off to college either for the first time or the fifth time. It will be our first time! We as the parents are super excited for this next step of parenthood. It’s another marker in the journey of our life. Our child…

  • Into the Unknown

    We have three weeks until our oldest is off to moving onto campus. For me, I am super excited for them. They will get to experience something my husband and I have never experienced. For the child making the move though… They are terrified! So much anxiety over this. Constant sick-to-my-stomach days. Fear of the…

  • Getting By

    A common phrase we all say is, “I’m ok”. These are words we say to get people to leave us alone. A phrase we use to avoid conversation… The biggest reason we say them is for people to notice we are hurting. I have definitely used them for all of these reasons. How about you?…

  • Fearful

    Our oldest will soon be leaving to move on campus for the first time. Needless to say it will be a time of adjustment for us all. Especially for our adopted sibling children… They have been through a lot together and luckily never had to be split from each other. So what will happen? Things…

  • Piece of My Heart

    A couple days ago a piece of me has left the state with their new spouse. She is off to a new job, a new home, a new church, and a new life. This young lady I have had the privilege of knowing her all her life. She is the daughter I have never had.…